點亮生命的故事—enlightening stories

為什麼你應該要定義你的恐懼而非你的目標？ 中英逐字稿： 我這張笑嘻嘻的照片 是 1999 年拍的， 我當時大學四年級， 是在一個跳舞派對之後拍的。 我那時非常非常開心， 我還記得大約十天後我在哪兒。 我坐在我的二手箱型車後面， 車停在校園的停車場裡。 那時我決定， 我要自殺， 下決定之後我很快就做好充分計畫， 我離懸崖的邊緣只有這麼近。 這是我最接近的一次， 我沒有扣下扳機的唯一原因 要感謝幾個幸運的巧合。 在那件事之後， 最讓我受驚的是：運氣的元素。 So, this happy pic of me was taken in 1999. I was a senior in college, and it was right after a dance practice. I was really, really happy. And I remember exactly where I was about a week and a half later. I was sitting in the back of my used minivan in a campus parking lot, when I decided I was going to commit suicide. I went from deciding to full-blown planning very quickly. And I came this close to the edge of the precipice. It's the closest I've ever come. And the only reason I took my finger off the trigger was thanks to a few lucky coincidences. And after the fact, that's what scared me the most: the element of chance. 00:48 所以我開始有條理地測試不同方法， 試著管理我的起起落落， 後來證明這是個值得的投資（笑聲）。 許多正常人一生會有 6 到 10 次 憂鬱發作， 我有躁鬱症，是家庭遺傳。 我已經發作過 50 次以上了， 我學到很多。 我有過很多的上壘打擊數，...